hard

its hard to write without meaning

without purpose

idk what will come out next but i know i think about it before i write anything

i guess i can get philosophical

im so full of fucken questions

try asking a good one

then try finding an answer

when there is no definite one

just get lost in the infinite

the dreams that never end

follow me

to where you cannot see

just close your eyes and let it be

just let it all unwind

there is no secrecy

just the naked honesty

no need to hide 

even if you’re shy

if you’ve done it once

you can do it once again

its no mystery

its not up to me

you have the power

i just have the mercy.

shame

putting it nicely.

i wish i could look into your mind. your soul.

clearly see the darkness that blinds you.

it seems like such a joke.

something so simple.

the mistakes you make. the things you say.

your neglection has you aching for some attention.

pitiful, embarrassing. 

you’re screaming like you have before

but who hasnt heard it yet.

there’s no response because there’s no one there.

no, not for you.

i like to answer my own questions

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? over and over again.

2. You talked to an ex today, correct? not correct.

3. Have you taken someones virginity? i believe so.

4. Is trust a big issue for you? trust shouldn't be an issue.

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? took her to the movies with friends. gonna see her when i wake up : )

6. What are you excited for? taxes, band practice, and natalie.

7. What happened tonight? i got stoned with a coworker and had a burrito.

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? only if they start puking everywhere.

9. Is confidence cute? more than that. confidence is a turn on.

10. What is the last beverage you had? coke in a can baby!

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? only a handful.

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? more than 1 pair!!!!

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? i dunno yet. whats happening?

14. What are you going to spend money on next? doing my taxes.

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? have been for a bit.

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? we all change.

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? my natalie.

18. The last time you felt broken? past couple of days.

19. Have you had sex today?not yet, barring its 1: 50 am.

20. Are you starting to realize anything? today has only begun.

21. Are you in a good mood? not the best.

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? if they cant harm me, yes.

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? im not quite sure.

24. What do you want right this second? rest.

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? why dont you go fuck em.

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? it is.

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? no chance. i need someone with a sense of humor.

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? kobe blocking some fools.

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? yes, i do.

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? no.

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? why would i talk to someone i hate?

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? she has feelings back.

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? just had one tonight.

34. Listening to? wild failure by White Lung

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? i do sometimes.

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?sleeping on her bed.

37. Do you believe in love at first sight? no. thats cheesy.

38. Who did you last call? christian

39. Who was the last person you danced with? idr when i last danced.

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? cuz i love her.

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? too long ago.

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? nope.

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? quite often.

44. Do you tan in the nude? no, i tan with a tshirt.

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? nope.

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? nope.

47. Who was the last person to call you? sike, thats the wrong number!

48. Do you sing in the shower? all the damn time!

49. Do you dance in the car? sing along too.

50. Ever used a bow and arrow? not a real one.

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? senior portraits.

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? yes.

53. Is Christmas stressful? if you get the whole world a gift.

54. Ever eat a pierogi? wtf is that?

55. Favorite type of fruit pie? apple

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? volcanologist, and paleontologist

57. Do you believe in ghosts? no.

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? all the time. like lifes on repeat.

59. Take a vitamin daily? THC

60. Wear slippers?at home.

61. Wear a bath robe? no.

62. What do you wear to bed? tonight, shorts and a tshirt

63. First concert? i got to see nsync

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? target.

65. Nike or Adidas? nike

66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?seeds

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? you belong with me

69. Ever take dance lessons? no, but i got rhythm ;D

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? psychiatrist.

71. Can you curl your tongue?what way?

72. Ever won a spelling bee? nah. never tried.

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? after a laugh attack.

74. What is your favorite book? good question

75. Do you study better with or without music? music on blast!

76. Regularly burn incense? irregularly

77. Ever been in love? i am

78. Who would you like to see in concert? foals again : <

79. What was the last concert you saw? bloc party!!

80. Hot tea or cold tea? iced tea!!

81. Tea or coffee? coffee though.

82. Favorite type of cookie? choco chips

83. Can you swim well? not really.

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yeah. is that hard?

85. Are you patient? at first. but i do have a great amount of patience.

86. DJ or band, at a wedding? both!!!

87. Ever won a contest? i think so.

88. Ever have plastic surgery? no.

89. Which are better black or green olives? black olives on pizza!

90. Opinions on sex before marriage? having it.

91. Best room for a fireplace? living room?

92. Do you want to get married? yes.

93. Are you a virgin? no

94. When was the last time you had sex? last week

95. Favourite food? cant have 1.

nba:

Kobe Bryant of the Los Angeles Lakers is introduced before a game against the New Orleans Hornets at Staples Center on April 9, 2013 in Los Angeles, California.
(Photo by Noah Graham/NBAE via Getty Images)

i love that the nba has a tumblr!!

nba:

Kobe Bryant of the Los Angeles Lakers is introduced before a game against the New Orleans Hornets at Staples Center on April 9, 2013 in Los Angeles, California.

(Photo by Noah Graham/NBAE via Getty Images)

i love that the nba has a tumblr!!