May 2013
hard
its hard to write without meaning
without purpose
idk what will come out next but i know i think about it before i write anything
i guess i can get philosophical
im so full of fucken questions
try asking a good one
then try finding an answer
when there is no definite one
just get lost in the infinite
the dreams that never end
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follow me
to where you cannot see
just close your eyes and let it be
just let it all unwind
there is no secrecy
just the naked honesty
no need to hide
even if you’re shy
if you’ve done it once
you can do it once again
its no mystery
its not up to me
you have the power
i just have the mercy.
April 2013
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shame
putting it nicely.
i wish i could look into your mind. your soul.
clearly see the darkness that blinds you.
it seems like such a joke.
something so simple.
the mistakes you make. the things you say.
your neglection has you aching for some attention.
pitiful, embarrassing.
you’re screaming like you have before
but who hasnt heard it yet.
there’s no response because...
i like to answer my own questions
1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged? over and over again.
2. You talked to an ex today, correct? not correct.
3. Have you taken someones virginity? i believe so.
4. Is trust a big issue for you? trust shouldn't be an issue.
5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? took her to the movies with friends. gonna see her when i wake up : )
6. What are you excited for? taxes, band practice, and natalie.
7. What happened tonight? i got stoned with a coworker and had a burrito.
8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? only if they start puking everywhere.
9. Is confidence cute? more than that. confidence is a turn on.
10. What is the last beverage you had? coke in a can baby!
11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? only a handful.
12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? more than 1 pair!!!!
13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? i dunno yet. whats happening?
14. What are you going to spend money on next? doing my taxes.
15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? have been for a bit.
16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? we all change.
17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? my natalie.
18. The last time you felt broken? past couple of days.
19. Have you had sex today?not yet, barring its 1: 50 am.
20. Are you starting to realize anything? today has only begun.
21. Are you in a good mood? not the best.
22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? if they cant harm me, yes.
23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? im not quite sure.
24. What do you want right this second? rest.
25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? why dont you go fuck em.
26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? it is.
27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? no chance. i need someone with a sense of humor.
28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? kobe blocking some fools.
29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? yes, i do.
30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? no.
31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? why would i talk to someone i hate?
32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? she has feelings back.
33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda? just had one tonight.
34. Listening to? wild failure by White Lung
35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? i do sometimes.
36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?sleeping on her bed.
37. Do you believe in love at first sight? no. thats cheesy.
38. Who did you last call? christian
39. Who was the last person you danced with? idr when i last danced.
40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed? cuz i love her.
41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake? too long ago.
42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today? nope.
43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush? quite often.
44. Do you tan in the nude? no, i tan with a tshirt.
45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss? nope.
46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night? nope.
47. Who was the last person to call you? sike, thats the wrong number!
48. Do you sing in the shower? all the damn time!
49. Do you dance in the car? sing along too.
50. Ever used a bow and arrow? not a real one.
51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? senior portraits.
52. Do you think musicals are cheesy? yes.
53. Is Christmas stressful? if you get the whole world a gift.
54. Ever eat a pierogi? wtf is that?
55. Favorite type of fruit pie? apple
56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? volcanologist, and paleontologist
57. Do you believe in ghosts? no.
58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? all the time. like lifes on repeat.
59. Take a vitamin daily? THC
60. Wear slippers?at home.
61. Wear a bath robe? no.
62. What do you wear to bed? tonight, shorts and a tshirt
63. First concert? i got to see nsync
64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? target.
65. Nike or Adidas? nike
66. Cheetos Or Fritos? cheetos
67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?seeds
68. Favorite Taylor Swift song? you belong with me
69. Ever take dance lessons? no, but i got rhythm ;D
70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? psychiatrist.
71. Can you curl your tongue?what way?
72. Ever won a spelling bee? nah. never tried.
73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy? after a laugh attack.
74. What is your favorite book? good question
75. Do you study better with or without music? music on blast!
76. Regularly burn incense? irregularly
77. Ever been in love? i am
78. Who would you like to see in concert? foals again : <
79. What was the last concert you saw? bloc party!!
80. Hot tea or cold tea? iced tea!!
81. Tea or coffee? coffee though.
82. Favorite type of cookie? choco chips
83. Can you swim well? not really.
84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? yeah. is that hard?
85. Are you patient? at first. but i do have a great amount of patience.
86. DJ or band, at a wedding? both!!!
87. Ever won a contest? i think so.
88. Ever have plastic surgery? no.
89. Which are better black or green olives? black olives on pizza!
90. Opinions on sex before marriage? having it.
91. Best room for a fireplace? living room?
92. Do you want to get married? yes.
93. Are you a virgin? no
94. When was the last time you had sex? last week
95. Favourite food? cant have 1.
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always
so here i am, im trying.
and there you are, trapped in your cage.
trying to get you out of the box.
life isnt square and neither should you.
im sharp around the edges. things wont be pretty if you rub me the wrong way.
i dont know what to do when that happens.
i get these thoughts. why try?
or why do you lock yourself in that cage?
im sure there’s something you can do.
then i...
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March 2013
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time killer
01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now? our friendship
02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you? my feet are tired
03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night? hooray for not having to wake up early in the morning.
04: what are you listening to? two steps, twice by foals.
05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to? school in the morning
06: where do you think your best friend is right now? sleeping in her bed.
07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days? no, but i will tomorrow :)
08: favorite song ? this modern love by bloc party
09: kiss on the first date? i tried to.
10: is there one person you want to be with right now? my love :<
11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life? yes, progressing.
12: is there something you would like to say to someone? how vague is this question. i would like to tell you that it was 12:22 when i wrote this.
13: what are three things you did today? ate, shat, and worked.
14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over? at a friends house.
15: what is your favorite kind of gum? dont has. minty though.
16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends? i suppose
17: what is on your wrists right now? a part of my laptop
18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with? scarlett johansson :(
19: does anyone have strong feelings for you? im sure my girlfriend does.
20: are you slowly drifting away from someone? not anyone significant
21: have you ever wasted your time on someone? yeah.
22: can you do the alphabet in sign language? nope. never learned sign
23: how have you felt today? exhausted
24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on? some american moneys
25: what is wrong with you right now? im alone in bed is whats wrong
26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in? not atm
27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now? starbucks haunts me -_______-
28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore? there was no love in the first place.
29: how late did you stay up last night and why? past midnight because i have too much on my mind
30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? today
31: what were you doing an hour ago? laying in bed on my laptop
32: what are you looking forward to in the next month? 4/20
33: are you wearing jeans right now?no, im in pjs
34: are you a patient person? i believe i am
35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months? x12
36: favorite color? RED
37: did you have a dream last night? yes, about a strip club. and one about zombies.
38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants? pajamas!
39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be? natalie!
40: do you love anyone who is not related to you? natalie!
41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you? it doesnt matter
42: do you like meeting new people? i love meeting people
43: are you afraid of falling in love? nope
44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself? because i was too lazy to make food :<
45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes? yes. i am flattered :)
46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough? when i lose
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These assumptions
I pay attention to the smallest of things.
I give them a different interpretation.
I am very peculiar with words and my mind twists them to mean many things.
What captivates me is the thought that occurs to me.
What if the other person totally meant the twisted way you understood their statement but doesn’t think you would have the same thought.
I am vague because it is an...
February 2013
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dreams
i like to think of dreams as insights to choices you’ve never made.
like they’re some twisted life of yours that would’ve happened if you had made a different set of choices.
they’re so complex but they are made up of only things you have experienced before.
that’s what kinda makes them real for me.
i can never dream about being a different person. i am always my...
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assumptions
im terrible with assumptions.
yes, my assumptions make me look like an ass.
its like a bad habit and i just set myself up for disaster.
but after feeling like an ass, i see a clearer picture.
i find that the result wasnt as bad as anticipated.
i think i need some practice.
instead of assuming, i should just ask. whats so bad about asking right?
some assumptions are even scary.
can’t...
i must be persistent
the more the better!
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pleasures
there’s no reason for feeling guilty for what you want.
everyone is out to get theirs. they’re not all the same.
i think that at the essence of it all, you’re just trying to get what you want.
whether it is friendship, love, money, etc., whatever makes you happy.
it is your selfishness that makes you act the way you do.
but really, what other choice do you have? you...
